Stepped

Fire it up,

burn it in.

Flame within

the heart of me.

Is it Hot?

I think not

just a glow,

that's melting me.

Where is  the gold?

There is no mold,

the melting pot,

seems part of me.

I just arrived.

I now have hives.

It's so much heat

inside of me.

Please get back,

don't do that

you're touching

all thats part of me.

I was not there

I had to stare

It did not seem

a part of me.

I stepped outside,

so you won't ride

and I can't hide.

The heart of me.

K.A.P.

4/30/2009

Wood

My mind is split.

It just might rip.

I'm on the tit,

can you get the milk for me?

I just got born,

it was my birth,

did you crack my egg for me?

You freak me out.

There is no doubt.

I want out.

There seems to be no good side of me.

Why or what.

You say shut-up.

I was a nut, you left a rut.

You just won't stop until you fuck.

You crack.

You creak.

You're not so neat.

So, please just get away from me!!

I hatched,

I held,

I heard no sound.

Oh, Wait, it's all because you're down on me.

Get up!

Get off!

Don't mind me.

It's just the would (wood) inside of me.

K.A.P.

4/30/2009

Words

Leave it be,

it's stirring me,

to be the one

I want to be.

I don't know you,

you don't know me,

and yet you come

and fail me.

I say to you

that I am me

and yet you won't

let me be.

You're asking me

not to be

the mold that I cannot see.

I need to be.

I need to go

I need for you

to stop the flow.

Your words to me

are worse you know

for you should see

the heart of me.

You do, you don't

you'll always know ("no")

your words just cannot flow for me.

They're deep, they're dark.

They are your Heart.

K.A.P.

4/30/2009

Yourself

My brain hurts bad,

it might go splat.

I can't do that

I'm so fat!

Please, get back

It's fact, Four Fact

It is my Lap.

 That I might back.

It's all of that,

the thing to do,

just don't say..

BOO! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!

Then I'll have too

feel for you

it's not something

I want to do.

My brain hurts bad

How do you do?

It's not all that

just fact for fact.

The thing to do

Is Who boo's Who?

Please, don't go

Please, come back

It's me and you

that gets us through!!!

K.A.P.

4/30/2009

Heart

I cannot see what I don't know,

it seems to be the Heart of me.

It's such a Show, I just don't know.

It seems to be the heart of me.

The World below might explode,

it seems to be the Heart of me.

The Bombs give way, duck down low.

It seems to be the heart of me.

When you get up don't get wet,

it seems to be the Heart of me.

Life can be such a Net, just a bet.

It seems to be the heart of me.

It's very clear why I'm here,

it seems to be the Heart of me.

I fill with Fear when I here.

It seems to be the heart of me.

The Mother Earth, she is so Dear, 

it seems to be the Heart of me.

No one seems to want her near.

It seems to be the heart of me.

Know Fear, it's like a mirror,

I seem to be the Heart of me.

K.A.P.

4/30/2009

Parking Lot

I cannot stare,

it's such a dare

to bring out,

the worst of you.

To look upon

the things that dawn;

They seem to come straight out of you!!

Please, don't think.

Just don't look.

That eye seems to be gearing you.

Look?!

Is that hole daring you?

Jump in or not

You're at a trot

Blast a lot

It's all your snot.

 Look?!

It's the blaring part of you!

Blind yourself,

blot the sun

it's your moon.

My star, will follow you!!

Hhmm?!

I think it might be the heart of you.

I do believe,

you are in need

It's O.K.

I park a lot.

Do you park Two?

K.A.P.

4/29/2009

Wells

Wells

I wish I was the one I new.

I wish that I could go on through.

What stops me now is rather shrewd.

Becoming who and what I knew.

Can you help now,

can you do?

All the things that once were new.

The days when things came crashing through,

or are you only speaking true.

Can you get up,

can you move

to a place of the Gnu?

Where clovened hooves,

and pointed horns,

become the things we used to do.

Those things we see, are not so cool.

They rise up and pierce you through.

Those things,

they aren't so new.

Minds of theirs will often snare

to come and dare,

to eat you through

to get right down 

deep inside

into the wells,

where you might hide.

The truth of life you desire

inside.

K.A.P.

4/29/2009

Paint Cans

Paint Cans!!

Spread them out!!

I'm only Eight

and I can't take

all the weight

from their mistake.

Colors,

Red, Blue, Green, Yellow, Orange,

Nude, Not, Rot, Spot.

Keep them pure

it's a lot.

Lids go here,

cans go there.

They do not need any air!!

Make some space,

clear the waste.

It's my mind

Post Haste!!

I need to drain the fear from me,

to late, don't shed a tear, it's clear.

That can, that lid, it's over here.

Close one eye and do not steer.

The Hardware Store is almost here.

Paint Cans, Paint Cans,

the shelves are strong

I'm in first gear.

I might be slow

but, I am here.

Paint Cans, Paint Cans

They were clear!!

K.A.P.

4/29/2009

Know

Two, Four, Six, Eight

A day,

A date,

that I can rate.

Two, Four, Six, Eight

I cannot stand,

because I ache.

Two, Four, Six, Eight

Get away,

they're on the take.

Two, Four, Six, Eight

It's not a date

for me to take.

Two, Four, Six, Eight

A time of cheer,

you're gonna tear.

Two, Four, Six, Eight

We'll go a year

before I smear.

Two, Four, Six, Eight

It was my birth,

I had no Date.

Two, Four, Six, Eight

What time tonight?

Will you rape?

Two, Four, Six, Eight

Give it hear,

I live in FEAR.

K.A.P.

4/29/2009

Toast

How old were you?

I was two.

I saw this thing,

it won't go through!

In and Out, Up and Down.

One in my mouth,

then I 'd frown.

So fast, So much,

I could not touch!

 It grossed me out.

Their fast, their quick,

they just don't quit!

Inflated will,

I'm just a till!

They come they go,

they come again.

It's sad to think,

I just can't be

Thank God that I'm not three.

I'm only one, when I was two.

I could not run, I had to do,

All the things to get me through.

A time and place,

when all I knew

was what I saw,

and what you do.

K.A.P.

4/29/2009

Prepare

Prepared for this since I was Five.

See not my face, my eyes don't lie.

In time, through grace, in space, in sine.

Know where, know place, I do not waste.

Don't help, don't stare, don't scream, don't share!

Despair of mine is no disgrace.

Just a time, in such thin space.

Hello, it's Me

I'm in my Head,

but I'm not dead.

What comes instead may cause you dread.

Move on, move out, don't run about.

The stream of words you bleed are out.

Not red, not green, not blue, know doubt,

It's not the money when I shout.

Hello, it's ME

It's ME,

You see?

The sky goes dark when you remark,

the hatred must! hit its mark.

No eyes you need, I bring you Heed!

Go blind, go hate, but don't be late.

For I am here and very near.

the fear that comes into my feet,

will carry me across, it's neat.

The cost is high,
so please, don't sigh.

Hello, It's me,

it's me,

do you see?

K.A.P.

4/28/2009

Board Game

In guise and mystery,

I live, I lie.

While walking tall,

I often fall.

I know my sound,

I know my name.

Brick by brick,

I go the game.

Play?

Mortar dries.

While my tears cry.

The skies are dry,

and I am Blue.

Because of you,

I ask,

Who's, Who?

Play!!!

Check Mate

K.A.P.

4/28/2009

A House of Madness; what my mother did to me to gain favor at the church of satan, My Rembrance

Lend purchase to the Immortal Soul, do this before you offer up the Innocence of a child as the tranquility of your life. The simple sale of an offspring to obtain that which should naturally be unobtainable broke the Laws of the Land.  The reckless appeal of Humankind into the courts of the Lords of the Dark caused a riff in the tides of man, changing the Laws of the Divine. Thus, the rules of the darkest under-lords were known. The Laws that were broken, the laws that reach down into the midst of the ones that are better when not named, is where this small life was thrown. Tenderness was not known to this small being however it was found and given freely as if it were their own. Protection was not present from the maternal one but would be delivered by the Demons brought to life on that day. Knowledge was seen by this small life in the darkest prayer of night, just not understood. What should have been the terror of an innocent became the joy of the guilty, sending back not a small life, but, rather, a Child of the Guild.

The tones which drive the self-purchase of such a Soul straightened the view and the depth of sight.  Upon such value was placed a "Gift of Guise", this was put onto the small one.  The defilement of such a soulful site was transgressed by the fool hearty and ill-tongued foulness of man.

Discernment ruled in such accord.  The reckless arguments later in life will be determined and known "well-deep" to the "Ancient Ones" of the Unnamed.  Delivering the time between;  Hence! for the revival of such "Age in Wisdom" and "Understanding" of the "Child of the Guild" will enable all to converse with the Dead.