Earth Mother

Expect nothing, receive everything,

quiet peace in solitude.

Meditate in isolate,

find truth in the study of,

suffering and pain.

The World is not sobering,

unhealth sickens the sea.

An ocean of small liberties,

a starlit sky is smog.

Extinction cries so loudly,

people laugh and jeer.

This Earth pains her sides,

while we turn and just won't die.

Time will be her favor,

animals will rule,

termits and bacteria,

survive the glacier pool.

A cock roach is determined,

a nuclear exist.

No matter what the outcome,

a small one doth persist.

Earth Mother shall exist.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009 

The List

Love is lost, eternal signs,

this word is felt and often mine.

Laws of Divine and natural state,

finding yourself, do not bait.

Release your fears and feel it near,

encompass yourself with truth.

Wise ones isolate in a meditative state,

quiet time enrich your soul,

faith in love will often soar.

The breath of air, natures lair,

oxygen for lungs to bare,

breathing love, plunging sun,

enjoy the moons repentence.

Peaceful love in a stare.

Freedom with my love consist,

spirit laws don't resist,

the courts for this

seem to persist,

hatred is not on the list.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Memories

It's just assault,

it's not my fault,

these rooms are just not free.

They charged their friends,

for ins and outs,

for pricks to cause the bleed.

A silence toned when I roamed,

alone and in despair.

No one believed,

no one would care,

they'd pull my hair,

I am a snare

I'm trapped inside this beast.

I do like me,

I am not free,

say "no" to this, it's make-believe,

your memories of me.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Lost At Sea

My older sister tortured me,

upon my sides she would prick me,

with needles, pins and what she'd see.

The wounds were explicitly,

the character of pain.

Sharp instruments,

with noise I'd see,

no name is what they did call me.

You changed our life,

and we're not free,

your fault, your birth,

and then I'd scream.

Their faces used to really

scare me.

In night and day,

in fright, in bay

they'd lay,

in very tight display.

It's all your fault,

you caused this vault,

don't speak assault,

or you will know default.

By hand and barrel,

Lost at Sea.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Disease

My brother handled me like bars,

my tricycle repair.

My blue Raleigh,

made attempts,

it lasted out the Pimps you see.

I was so fast,

he punched like that,

no sound, he smothered me.

Crawl in here,

I'd get stuck,

tear off my pants and underwear.

I would sweat in despair,

he'd force himself inside.

My poop would hide,

deep he'd ride,

my lift would often break.

I could not take,

he was a snake,

in night he'd rule my thumb.

He'd hump my bum,

and then he'd come,

put me upon my knees, 

say "please".

You're so dumb, 

you're just a bum,

and I am your disease.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Will End

Raping, taping, do not speak,

you little tiny fuckin' freak.

Your words and screams,

they are so mean,

your made to birth it out.

Do not bite,

this is the sight,

my hardened organ speaks.

You little whore,

it is your chore,

bend well,

or you shall sink.

My ear to every door!

Your shrinks,

will only stop and think,

your only reason is this season,

lasting all the years.

The word I "no",

shall be not known,

I'll break you in at Three.

Shut-up you touched,

I'll tell your Mom,

a simple slut,

will end.

(Don't sin!!)

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Fling

I love my life, though full of sights,

red velvet curtains sway,

tied-up just right,

my mom not tight,

enjoying Lairs of darkness stares,

I walk from room to room.

Sat down at booths,

the men were loose,

their hands with ropes they tied.

My ice cream melts,

as I delay,

I just do not want to play.

Behind the wooden cross,

the darkened walls,

in redness falls, my knees in broken fare.

The Lords proclaimed,

not my name, my age is hidden; fright!

Step by farther; hand was harder,

I feel my body split.

I crack, my back, not by choice,

help the girl she breathes.

The witches bow unto the lords,

dominion doth not ring.

It's just another fling.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Dark Frown

People speak in forum mixed,

without much of the rich.

Tricked out with style,

for long while, 

do you retain your bile?

Vomit well, in deep I tell,

the tale of my youth

An intellectual genius find,

diagnosis in my own behind,

a beating rhythm cursed.

My mother and her mate did rape,

my mind and body too.

What good are thoughts,

when you are taught (tot),

the things you shouldn't do.

You turn one eye,

so you can see,

you bleed for an eternity.

No help found,

you're just a sound,

a whip is what will have you bound.

A leather piece and I big, dark, frown.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Timid

Noted the divinity, of social identity,

put forth your tears of shame.

Cram down the name.

You must claim fame.

Ideas of the Imprisoned Flame.

Burn bright with height,

 a tall, true beauty, flight!?!

Up so high, I finally sigh,

give-up your thoughtful site.

You must be smart,

to be a Tart,

surviving every nark.

Turn not your cheek,

for you doth have Two,

considering all of you.

Secrets flare!

Deep I dare!

My memory of dark and druids lair.

I care, don't blare, your choice,

your voice, in timid, lurid share.

RUN!!

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Study

Rise forth my common friend,
to what you can't transcend. 
The intelligence of men,
the genius of just ten.


A wonder revelation,
of illusion and transportation,
recall at any moment,
the list I have, Atonement.


I don't forget I'm lost,
a child of great cost,
a mind of an intellectual,
selection of the sexual.


Sensuality reigns perpetual,
found in the complexional,
study of the intellectual,
leaves learning for the congregational. 


A church in command of social,
communications demand.
Genius ran,
in a place I tried to stand.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

On Any Given Day

The hatred in me commands my intensity.

I cannot be truthful in lies.

One refuses to right the horrid wrongs,

they are not my account to withdraw.

Look before you crawl,

your nature knows it all.

To write in simple blood of verse,

I would know that I would fall.

It's sad beyond belief,

that I cannot find relief,

judgment points down to my feet,

in this I've found defeat.

I rise with a mighty call.

The lore of the angel maul.

Each word is taken tall,

instead of seeing the shawl.

It cloaks my complications,

with no manipulations.

A multiple display,

of whom I choose to play,

on any given day.

K.A.P.

6/1/2009

Blue

Storming glacier icy melt,

divine strength dust wane.

Nature cause such a strain,

God's lightning can't be heard.

Thunder of the spirit proud,

rain down a mighty shroud.

Gold drops and platinum pours,

from heights I cannot see.

An Oracle of stones in time,

a structure known to man,

now its time to make my stand,

I don't need a hand.

 Look out! I am not what you know.

Around the wisdom I will show.

It's all write, pen in hand.

Mind is busy with my plan.

Message builds outrageous flow,

sea side grace is all I face.

Storms of nature, hopeful try,

I just do not want to die.

K.A.P.

6/1/2009

Learn

Bold in record

Bold in book

Bold in nature, what he took.

Bold in manner

Bold in pleasure

Bold in measure, please don't look.

Bold in darkness

Bold in light

Bold in outcome, I'm not shook.

Bold in knowing

Bold in action

Bold in thought, Oh please don't fraught.

Bold in mind

Bold in might

Bold in soul, Oh! the days old.

Bold in verse

Bold in sound

Bold in feelings, please don't hurt.

Bold in nature

Bold in trying

Bold in good, I really should,

learn to be bold.

Oh please, I 'm getting sold.

K.A.P.

5/29/2009