Sadistically Cruel,
the Narcissist will pursue,
there seems 'No Rescue',
targeted for Life,
just creating more strife.
Know Fight
I had hoped that silence,
would end their relentless attack.
I thought Distance,
would offer me that comfort,
I thought Time might Heal,
a Lie!!
The Malignant Narcissist,
continues to harm,
they just do not like to lose,
Period!!
When?
Long before I began to write,
I sat down with my Mother,
Stepfather in tow,
I made this request;
"Please stop your attack, give it a rest."
I spoke frankly,
in their Drawing Room,
I gave my address,
I proposed a mutual ending,
speaking,
"This is your Life. These have been your decisions.
I would just like to 'Get Along' and not suffer what I believe was wrong."
Composed and without thought,
my Stepfathers Plot,
saying,
"Your Mother and I have no idea what you are speaking about."
Such a common Theme,
for so long,
denial has been their song,
it used to Steam me,
as my Stepfather spoke of such things I.E.,
"I never beat you. We never hurt you. You have just made it all up, the Devil has you!!"
Freely I Seek,
what I know to be,
the Evidence is inside of me,
I embrace myself so I may know,
someday I'll be O.K.,
maybe all of the shame will just go away.
Free of their lies,
I am left with the truth,
'My Lives', 'My Why's',
and all of my goodbyes,
intact I'm black.
I try to find 'Reason' for my Life,
in the 'Difficulties' I embrace a Challenge,
in the strife I engage Change or a Choice,
in sadness I see ability,
in 'Thought' I find relief,
a sort of meeting with the Mind.
I 'Know' that I chose this Life,
I wanted to know something;
"What is Evil?"
1 comment:
The truth is a vile stench to a narcissist.The minute you present them with their very bad behavior from the past you'll be told "i never did that, i never said that your sick you need help" Call them out on a truth they cannot deny and you'll be hit with the force of an angry demon. Everyone will know what a liar you are! She's been dirtying up your image your entire life as a preemptive strike so when the day comes that you figure out what she really is no one will believe you anyways cause she has her lying tentacles wrapped around everyone. I gotta give it to people with this personality disorder.Their all about long term goals. Mother is only a title she carries when she in fact is the wolf at your door.She feeds off the pain she inflicts and her secret is safe with her. There is a real evil attached to this. Evil is doing wrong knowing that it's wrong and enjoying it.Evil people don't know their evil because there is no good in them to conflict with.The bible says to entertain strangers in doing so some have entertained angels. What about demons? Can they hijack someones soul? From a spiritual angle i believe these people are cursed. Never feeling real happiness or being able to give it. They are an icy cavern of bottomless pits.They are like angry sharks swimming aimlessly in life devouring everything in their path. They will never be full.Evil does not exist apart from us.It needs a catalyst to do it's bidding.I'm guessing your the truth teller.Causing all the trouble in the family? Going no contact was my only option.Like spiritual surgery. I cut that b@#$! out of my life. That's right MY LIFE.
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