The thought to change anything revolves at the Question or The Perception of: Need or Want. Seeking out the enlightenment to "self" is never a disappointment; for in such a search you can expand the journey into a life.
Listening and Entertaining idea's (proposed or Not) will edge you out into the belief you seek. Religion is so daunting to me. Involving a great amount of self-reflection into "why" one is here, walking today, yet, spirituality is so much work. Almost as it is easier to follow than to lead yourself, to trust, what may be, faith in humanity.
Globally or Universally spoken, I listen. It is not the good or the bad that shapes any one person, but, the combination of both that derives the outcome of what that individual will chose as a representation of their said belief.
"It would have been nice if anyone checked-in not twice, but once."
sadness takes me.
8/18/2012
"I dream of prosperity, of Mind, of Body, of Pocket Book, of Marriage."
I think on my twin soul on these accounts.
8/20/2012
"Why do we just not do a natural thing or two each day? Why must we pay before we play? What are natural wonders if I cannot dream or put asunder pain? The answers come with the game."
August 11th 2012
"I find that the strangeness of a day will not give in any way to delight, until you have interested yourself in knowing the "why." Even at that, the days that cause you to cock your head to the side and ask yourself nothing at all, are just weird. As if you are modeling clay in your mind. I would say somehow that this would bring relief, but it never does. It just takes out the equation of pensive thought."
July 31st 2012
"To ride the rail of circumstance, do you know? What's the chance, that you'll find; a perfect dance to search out..........a strangers stance right into the turn of........what? You missed the road to......Why?"
August 1st 2012
"The surge of what is and never can, relieves me from should. To love a man from the first of a strange in time in recount of propose, I laugh at all that impacted my life since. To the regard of Limerence as a defense, I celebrate my lack of choice in such. For such a state has saved me from the moves of Men. Since '04 or at the least.....no exact, oh beautiful! date and time sets my bind with him. Dear Blunt, you are. Thanks for being yourself, existing, and, singing of annoying things. You have captivated my need to protect myself from Liars on account of whom says rude and assuming things about closeness."
August 23rd 2012
"I scream to know myself, to discover my worth. Why?? I'm an outcast! Silence fills my being. The hush of All-Time, listens to the blame. Execution of the written word, replacing ugliness of speech, damage still occurs. Demons protest. Date yourself to know my now. I will not kowtow to your filth. To place upon my ears, with eyes that read your text. I object to your tact. Obscene. To classify my name in repetitious beat, I fame. A malignancy, the wipe-out of your word with the ending of a name (not hers). to period for piece. I state.....{you're insane} I poll, not I, but sin. Rip not your life through mine."
August 28th 2012
"World of Toll:
How doth thou count?
Thy will go into depth of soul, know your 'morrow sorrows upon sight of your right. The tumbling of Nature's plight identifies this sight. Mother Earth dies in "Might" why fight? I charge your want to need, in this I give myself plausible try. The Nine, the Eleven, the numbers of my Type, calculate my birth, feel this turf, and, know my worth is to Earth Itself. In this I plea to all of thee, that share an ear to hear such a plea for you count in numbers too."
August 28th 2012
"I skate in and out of sight, my mind frozen while about. Stuck in scenes of yesterday, I strike a formal cry of why? Messages of old times past, push through in the breath of thought I'm spun in the stuck of a strange force, needing to show me reason of source. Rational thought in such sight of disturbing fright ~ concerns. To see myself in late night ~ Sepia moved. The terror of the After matter of such shock has brought on so much talk. Shame on that. As a fact, I wish it had been then that caused such a case ~ not now."
August 30th 2012
"Born with a purpose is a difficult way to understand that all we know and all we do, the reason we walk, a certain beat, comes from a bigger place than ourselves. I have fought with myself about delivering this message to earth. Thinking that it should come from a man and not a girl, I have put off the inevitable. I concede to the call of a greater purpose than my own conscious telling me that not one person will listen to these words of mine."
September 5th 2012
"A clear and distinct sight, life weights our lives. The days of older Times gave strength, of signs. So beautifully, we gathered ourselves to better each and every tell. I write with the script of voice. With tact I carry on towards a begin. To pass the scrolls no more, there is no belief in only exist. A scrib in Old Times Past has taught of forward memory kept. In a modest vein of where the truth flows, I often see my mind, it seems to have been stowed in verse. The dearest residence of a respected site, to find a comfort where there is no fight."
September 9th 2012
"The Ninth Understanding leads you to the road of knowing Knowledge for yourself. The transformation of a Conscious Mind is not an easily obtained goal to achieve without great consideration to the ultimate outcome. To capture thought in the design of complete structure as oppose to those (AN) unfinished blur's of the random speech which pours from your mind, carries a tremendous burden to what you have already said in spoken verse. The casual shall become the responsible, each and every action carries a burden of impact. No longer can you excuse your tactless behavior or tasteless words, with, "A bad day" or "I was speaking my mind". "
September 10th 2012
'The Book of the Nine Understandings'
"The construct of a star in a dimension so far; that the angular view of what to do, teaches a few to look to Creation to know this too. Acceptance of depth as your dimensional scope of understanding hope, is an interesting concept to introduce believing in the faith of what is in actual reality, in order to trust that it is in the venture of your mind's eye that delivers sight of so much more."
September 12th 2012
"The birth of a concept on "Why" answers nothing, but, asks it all in a simple word."
September 12th 2012
"In the worth of our mind, a suggestion to be kind to yourself is wise and very prudent to avoid a miserable demise, in a life full of lies. The candor of One's self is or should be in a peaceful design as to not be behind in practice or become blind to a progression of thought, or, a desire to think with independence, and, not sink into the desperation that you are not one with a majority. Standing apart from any given idea creates fear amongst those that you have distanced yourself. In this, you, as a human being, develop a broader view of what is, and, further your message, your own Mind's thought, against this product of fear, that you created with only a thought of difference."
September 12th 2012
For the Wisdom of Sake; original.
"We inhabit 'A Body' of Store; a spirit of, there is so much more. To be so full of doubt of such causes your place of inhabitance to abhor. A splitting of personality, do you stay or do you leave. A time of spacial difference, moving with hesitance could be bad. Knowing, practicing a wisdom found, is better than the assumptions of the thrown."
September 19th 2012
"The value of review is paramount. To find an apology for what has happened, it would have healed me had it been genuine."
September 14th 2012
"I remember the incident that sent me down memory lane. Triggered by my best friend's father's need to have his (Manhood) cock sucked."
September 14th 2012
Visiting Eliza in El Dorado Hills, Calif.
"What shall come will be within the confines of me. To speak of the future as if it were the past, shall last. Turn away from your assumed ignorance, embrace instead a Knowledge of why. To declare a Faculty instead of an understanding, tempers the gods at best."
October 1st 2012
Dear Truth,
Bury yourself, for lies are abundant.
Misleading words that lead to disturbing lives, has caused me to lose the innocence of faith in the random Human Being. Again, I find that purpose could indeed be a state for another to destroy you.
Yours truly,
Hiding
October 6th 2012
"I check my feelings at the door to KNOW there is always more. No matter what, until your death, belief is nigh, and, jokes are many. As in every "True Life Story" it is not until the belief becomes the bitterness you breathe that you take thought to interest your day."
October 11th 2012
"Where is it?
Did you find it?
Your life before?
When you came, did you see?
Do you remember?
Your claim? Your life? Your love?
To know of so little, after so much has been said, should cause you to blush with shame."
October 15th 2012
Nothing is what it seems
"The destruction of an individual idea for the growth of even further ignorance, seems counterproductive to becoming wise to future tells."
October 15th 2012