The world is full of these people. It seems that they have a purpose within themselves. It seems their purpose is to just destroy you with their words. Sadly, it seems I engaged with more of these type of people in my life than I did with any other type of person. I found it difficult to meet uplifting people or just people that are even supportive.
It's funny how the words become or have the power to strike you down in mid-sentence. I certainly am well-versed at that one particular experience. I have watched how it takes place my entire life. You would think I would be better at avoiding these type of people, but, I seem to run head-long into them. I am working on this in my self, to find out the "why".
Soul shatterers / Identity crushers, its how I refer to this sub-category. They seem to cast judgment constantly when you are speaking to them. I know that I was raised with this type of person, or be it persons. It has been a life-long struggle to get through and not get caught up in doing the same thing. It is so easy to judge one another and so difficult to support them. Most of my days are filled with my own personal fears. I am afraid of everything, the day itself causes me to feel fear.
As a child my days were filled with sexual, physical, spiritual, mental, psychological manipulations, altercations, deception and it seems to all add up to, a lot of psychopathic abuse. I do not believe there have been many moments of my life where this was not either happening right in front of me or very close by in proximity. I am finally becoming capable to make a stand against this constant barrage from my family. It is so difficult to do this, you end up being all alone. In my case, I have decided to go public with my story, it has helped the shaking fear inside of me and as night falls each day I become a little less afraid.
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