Saturday, August 25, 2012

To Text With Intent and without Cause is a Sign of Trouble

After a Restraining Order precluded any communication for over three years, I have had to awake this morning to a brutal attack of text messages left on my Cell Phone.  I have had to turn my phone off due to the numerous calls and the constant harassment in the past three in a half weeks.  The onslaught of messaging picked-up in such a severe way after the loss of a dear friend, that it has become obvious that I am an open target for my family to fire upon once again.  With no relief in sight, I post on my Google Blog today, the messaging from whom said, "You should take a gun and blow your head off. It would be the best thing for the family."  Funny how appearances can be so deceiving.

Thursday, August 23, 2012 ~ 12:58 p.m.

"I believe you and Tamara talk of mom dying all the time because you both want our mother dead.  You both hate her so much.
God will forgive you for all your hatred and lies.
One day there will be love and blessings for our mother coming from your lips and in all you write, Karen Anastasia Placek and Tamara Sue Placek.
Love from your sister,
Sarah Anne Meakin."

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:17 a.m. ~ My Reply To The Above Text.

"I would ask u what u r on about but the interest in anything u would have to say left many years ago.  Please do not text me again."

*Please be aware that the next 12 "Text Messages" which came in, in less that 1 hour, became quite frightening to me.  I have always been unsure of what or how to speak to my family, but most people do not understand why.  I would like you to read and know that why for yourself.  I never responded to any of these Text's, mostly because they came in so fast, but then, in the end and as usual, you become speechless.  

So, please read these "Text Messages" with great caution to your own well-being not mine.  For it really sent me for a loop, as it was unsolicited and quite shocking to read such a harsh review upon my own life.  I have since turned my phone off and am uncertain exactly how to handle what my younger sister has said to me today.  

It is extremely destructive and without any means other than to tear at your heart strings.  However the sadness I feel is for her, not I.  Regardless of this feeling I still must be wise in my actions and remind myself that Sarah is an adult, and, nearly Forty Years Old.  She is accountable for what she has said today.  

I believe this reaches far beyond sibling-rivalry and it certainly cannot be construed as child's-play.  I can only accept it as a threat and an example of what is to come from them in the future.

I am posting this today because I feel so unsafe in life itself.  

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:20 a.m. ~ From Sarah Anne Meakin

"Please take down your Blogs.  Please stop your hatred of your own family members.  Please stop your lies.  Your heart and your life are worth more than hatred and jealousy and lies, Karen."

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:23 a.m ~ From Sarah Anne Meakin

"Let love and forgiveness into your heart.
Remember the love and laughter and light.  Come out of the darkness and pain, come out of the torture of your deception.  Begin living and loving life."

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:24 a.m. ~ From Sarah Anne Meakin

"I will not stop, Karen.  You are my sister.  You have involved me when you involved our Family, that includes you.  You are not alone.  You know this.  Stop your self hatred today!"

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:27 a.m. ~ From Sarah Anne Meakin

"There is peace for you and love for you.  Find it, Karen.  No one is denied!  
Pray to Jesus, he waits to hear from you.  Open your heart and allow his love in.  You know how to do this.  Papa and Nana taught all of us.  Mom taught all of us.  Let the light of heaven stop the raging of Hell.  You are loved."

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:47 a.m. ~  From Sarah Anne Meakin

"The tactics of a coward are not communicating, Karen.  Everything you just made accusations about are what you are doing right now."

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:49 a.m. ~ From Sarah Anne Meakin

"You have a Family.  Stop your rejection and own up to your own heart.  Mom has always loved you.  You left her.  You came back.  Blamed her and hater her.  Now your publishing more hate and wondering why you're alone??"

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:49 a.m. ~ From Sarah Anne Meakin

"You always have talked about "When mom dies."  It hasn't always been Tammy.  It's been you too."

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:50 a.m. ~ From Sarah Anne Meakin

"So, Question: What will you do when mom is gone?  Who will you hate then?  Who will you blame then?"

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:52 a.m. ~ From Sarah Anne Meakin

"And you do try to kill out mother.  You do it with your words, with your rantings, you do it with all your hatred.  Well guess what, big sis??  It won't work.  I stayed to protect our family.  You threaten Me??  Really?  For shame, Karen."

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 9:59 a.m. ~ From Sarah Anne Meakin

"Oh, I get it!!  You hate me, don't you?  You're jealous of Me.... because I get to see and talk to mom everyday.  I get to hug her and hear her tell me she loves me, that's it!!  Well, you could too!
It isn't Rocket Science, Karen.  Get your hate and jealousy and dump it.  Mom is here, she loves you, she always has.  But, I won't let you hurt her anymore.  You have love?  Show it!  Take down the Blog's and stop hating yourself."

*This is the last Text.  It is extremely heinous and the comparison is beyond what I can even comprehend at this given moment.

Saturday, August 25, 2012 ~ 10:04 a.m. ~ From Sarah Anne Meakin

"Read the story about Jaycee Lee Duggard.  Listen to what she has to say, Karen.  After everything she endured, she has hope, love, and joy in her heart.  You can too."

I was kidnapped twice as a child.  This has always disturbed me a great deal.  I was told the second time that I was kidnapped that I had been put back.  I have never known what this meant.  I do not care to delve into the subject.  The fact that Sarah has even compared me to a kidnapping victim, disturbs me on such a level of intensity that I can honestly say, I'm not sure about who is who, but I do know one Man that I have total and absolute confidence in.  He may not be in my life today, but he is real and I do not believe that he would participate or support such a destructive act in anyone's life.  For that I am grateful. 

The Wild Roam On The Plains of Life Itself!!

I hear the pain when people speak.
Do they realize what will be reaped by,
pointing fingers, interruptions, condemnation.
And, then they weep.

When and where does the path begin?
Not of healing, but of where you've been.
Before you look to see what can be,
should we not acknowledge the road of,
not so nice?

What we have done, what we have seen,
or won't our nightmares never cease?
To tell another Human Being,
relieves the pressure of mean.

Some believe, some will laugh.
Some people will bring even more reproach into your life.

Do not strife.

In difference, you will find what may direct.
In abstinence, you may feel a chance in this life.

You may have only one day,
but in forever....,
isn't this the chance we must take?

It is that first step towards our own existence,
 that will be revealed to us,
our need to carry through our purpose on this Earth.

Should we ignore?
Should we despair?
Should we pass and never dare?
Would we not end up in a snare?
Of Life? Of Death? In Present?

One by one, breath by breath,
the oxygen we inhale will be why we prevail.

Throw not to the wolves an opportunity of continuance.
Be what will be the example of excellence.