Monday, March 21, 2011

What Did You Say?

Tomorrow is the day that never comes;
yet, it is always arriving.

Yesterday was always there;
yet, it is haunting.

Today is active space;
yet, we fear this race.

Death has always been;
yet, birth seems to just begin.

Amazement is not our treasure;
yet, we mine it in our wonder.

Hatred seems to bring us pleasure;
yet, love seems to gives us pain.

Illusion seems to be our money;
yet, it pays in funny ways.

Life seems to take forever;
yet, time seems to plunder.

Respect seems difficult;
yet, judgment will come so readily.

Discovery seems so terribly scary;
yet, adventure seems so wrong.

Endings often cause flight;
yet, beginnings seem to wane.


Simple Complexity

In complexity there is simplicity,
once you see simplicity you once again
understand how complex simplicity really is.

When you no longer see the complexity
in simplicity, you begin your own
extinction due to your lack of vision
into the complexity that simplicity

Understanding that simplicity provides
complexity with an infinite number
of simple equations to be understood.

You then realize, that in simplicity
you find complexity, which is
the biggest and most complex
puzzle, found, but not understood.


Written on blog 2/17/2008
Edited on 3/21/2011

The Soul Shatterer

The ability to enjoy the creative corners of your own mind begins with recognizing you have them. The belief and exploration of such places is for you to find, and enjoy. Sharing such information with anyone is for you to decide. We all are familiar with the negativity which flows so easily from the mouths of others.  Especially when you are speaking positively. Or speaking of events that cannot be proved or backed-up with what is referred to as sustainable facts. So, deciding to share anything out of the ordinary with anyone at all, is a personal decision. I have never been as shot down with such deadly force by another human being as when I opened  my mouth and said aloud, "I had the most incredible journey in my mind last night.” I was immediately hit, "Doing drugs again,” "Hasn't anyone told you LSD is illegal”.  I tried to say as quickly as possible, "No, NO, I meant......”. I didn't even get to finish, they interjected again, "That's not possible, what are you nuts!” I just shut my mouth and curled up into a ball inside myself as this supposed friend of mine went on and on, never shutting her mouth about it. All day wherever we went she said to other people we knew, "Lol, did you know Karen journey's in her mind", "isn't that a joke", lol. The entire joke reeled around.

Last night I removed this post because a very similar thing happened again.  The person I live with was on the computer reading or looking up something about "streaming consciousness".  He asked me the name of my site and I told him. While reading this piece for the first time I became excited because he was interested in reading my blog.  He began to laugh inappropriately, he was only on the first paragraph.  The first sign of  narcissist is the laughter at something that is not considered funny at all.  I did not think that this being titled "The Soul Shatterer" was meant to be an introduction to anything funny.  What do I know though, maybe it's funny in the first paragraph to you too. I never thought that laughing at someone else's expense was ever funny.  I wrote the first paragraph and what follows off the top of my head several years ago.  I want to write a couple of books, this being one of them.

Continued from above:
These words that they utter with such disdain become part of the language that is known to me as "the soul shatterer.” Cruel and unkind for no other reason than this person is mean, they don't even want to hear what you are saying but they certainly have nothing but doubt and disgust about what they are pretending to hear but that you are not even saying.

But, because you shared for the first time, a very personal and incredible experience, it changes you forever about sharing much of anything, metaphysical or not. Why? I believe it is for the following reason, when your soul is shattered with another persons words, the repair of such a fragile and delicate part of yourself is beyond difficult.  It is nearly impossible to do. However, understand this, and it truly will only take your own mind to have the mind-set to decide that independence is not separating from the crowd or the world, rather, independence is actually joining the link to Humanity. The mere fact that we can be independent of one another in our thoughts, yet we can stream together as one in our actions is or shows the imaginative capabilities of our minds and explosive natures of our thoughts. Creating a pure, positive energy. Talk about protection, a heat shield or a magnetic force surrounding each of us, put it all together and I bet that sparks would become the enlightenment of the elemental source everyone is searching for independently.

We truly are the most unfortunate/ fortunate gifts to ourselves, yet, we need to be. I am assuming at this juncture that it is this way, in order to progress with firm and positive convictions of ourselves. Independent of each other, yet reliant on one another. I began to wonder if I would ever be clear with myself. Because which is it? Reliant on me or you. Or is it both? Maybe not! Reason for me, I do not want to stream with the negativity and yet I find myself wrapped up in it again and again. I get so mad at myself for being so stupid, falling prey to such cruelness.  I kick myself as I try to heal myself from the pain of the words of another person. These words that are uttered seem to just fall out of their mouth. The person has no care or concern, just blah, blah, blah and rambling on as they speak so fluently this language that shatters souls. They must be some linguists, because when they are done before it seems they began, they seem to just turn to go on about their day. They don't even look back.

There I am, left in a big pile of crap, that two seconds ago I would swear was my soul, or at least the identity that I thought was me. Now, I am unrecognizable. I hurt like no other hurt you have ever felt. It is a pain inside your physical being.  Yet, ice, aspirin, pain killers, heating pad, no drug touches it. It just hurts, as if the words were an actual pointed spear with an edge of unimaginable poisonous strength that has the piecing explosion of; well, I cannot think of what to compare it to, but you never saw it coming. The exactness of such a strike is done with such expertise and experience that you are certain it was done on purpose. Yet, the shards are still felt, as the razor like wounds begin to bleed inside your very being. Help!, you cry!, plea! and scream, to no avail (silently of course).

Well, I believe it is done on purpose by cruel people who have become soul hunters. I believe that cruelty runs rampant and that people embrace this perceived ability as some new found power play over humanity.

Karen Anastasia Placek

Written on blog 2/17/2008
Edited on 3/21/2011


Independence is achieved through the constant search for oneself. In today's World, people seem to be thrown by the simple and wallow in the complex. A source to lean on when beginning your journey to the 5th dimension, is simply you! I believe the mind to be the most phenomenal source library to exist. Having the confidence to believe that your mind is capable of imaginative beliefs would be an awesome start toward your own "Independence".

Each of us was given the most incredible gift.  A gift that was free of charge.  From whom, I suppose, is a debate I would rather not join. But, we were all given a mind with the ability to have the freedom of thought. With this one gift so much of our everyday concerns can be sorted through, which can bring such peace to our minds when we are successful. On those days, where we have achieved our own peaceful and serene tranquility ourselves, I believe, at least for myself, there is nothing I cannot do. I feel like an enormous volcano bursting forth with molten rock as the explosive heat of my core. I feel as if I am liquid nitrogen and I will rocket to unknown places.

To feel the burn of such fiery energy consume my every cell and ignite all that I am in one single explosive ride, is merely an "Original Thought" gone wild. At those moments, my mind, my thought, my heart and my soul join as one with my imagination and the journey begins. I cherish this most of all because when this happens, I have never left the confines of my own being, or have I? This question and the ability to not have to prove or show anyone any of this, other than believing myself while having the exhilarating ride is what Independence is to me.

Karen Anastasia Placek

Written on blog 2/17/2008
Edited 3/21/2011

The Fifth Dimension is You!

So many people write or speak about change. You may find yourself thinking about change in your everyday life, I know I do. Some people wait their entire life for something, anything to change. Mostly, they seem to leave change to fate, chance, religion, God, other people are a popular one to choose, or they just leave it to any other reason that they can think of and believe it will initiate a change for them.

The question to ask yourself,

"Are you the person waiting for change?"
"Are you the one that will make change happen?" 

Be honest, nobody is listening and the only person you would be fooling is you.

"Are you a mover?"
"a shaker?" 
"Are you a motivator?" 

Or are you barely hanging onto the present. I think that one is me every other second of the day, LOL! Are you afraid of what is around the next corner? Do you believe that good things happen to people who wait? Or do you believe that good things happen to people who make them happen? Do you run from a challenge? Or to a challenge? Do you face a challenge head on? What do you do? Do you have an answer for yourself?

I would venture to say that most of us are terrified of change and usually it does not matter the type of change, we will be terrified. The change could be in your employment or romantic relationships, getting a bigger house or a different car, change in responsibility or a different creative idea. It may be a change in any number of these areas or any other aspect of our lives, but change is change no matter how you slice it for yourself. However, at the urge to yearn for change, we will fight change the entire way. It would make no difference what form change arrived in; the battle against change is on! In fact, when anything changes at all (in this world) our entire world is turned upside down. Strange, don't you think? Especially when everyone around the world seems to want something, anything to change.

Have you ever met anyone that fits the above description? I know I do, hence why I am writing this blog I suppose. Other than me, lol, do you know anyone else right now? What have you said to make them realize that the very thing they complained about not happening is also the very thing that they are pushing away when it is offered.

The closest comparison I can make would be a promotion at work. People want to make more money and would like to have more responsibility, generally speaking. In order to achieve this goal there is a major thing that must take place, CHANGE! Change of position involves more responsibility, more money, it involves changing the way that fellow workers looked at you, this could be good or bad I suppose, but it will most definitely be different. The biggest change of all is usually the degree of accountability you are now responsible for when accepting the promotion.

Day by day, I am so struck by the words that pour out of people’s mouths. For instance, I actually had a person tell me once that if I would only threaten him with his job that then and only then would he be capable of working better. All I could think was "Wow", this person is not only afraid of changing his mind set toward his working environment, but he would like to dump all that responsibility for that decision on my lap, so it’s all my fault that he will not change. Do you think that he was afraid of change? What would you say to him? What should you say to him? How could you change this from a negative to a positive situation? How can I put the burden of responsibility to change back in his lap?

Why do people yearn for change and then run from it? What can you do to help them realize that change in your life is exactly that "change?" Is it possible to identify the people that are afraid of change? Should we be wasting our time to help them identify themselves? Should we be offering up idea’s, position’s, promotion’s etc., that will require or initiate change, even though we know this to be their trait (fear of change). Can we be that selective? Is it wise to be that selective?

The definition of "change" in the 1959 Old Webster’s Dictionary;

1. To progress from one state of being to another, as a grub changes to a beetle (a grub is a worm-like larva of some insects, as beetles and yes it really does give that definition)
2. To become different, vary, as the colors of a sunset change.
3. To pass from one phase to another, as the moon.

As you can see, it is not a small feat to ask for, receive or recognize change. For some it may be exciting and for others it is just plain terrifying. This World is afflicted with the disease of apathy. No matter what you believe apathy is not good, not healthy, not prosperous, not growth, not anything at all! Freedom from such an affliction will only come to be through change. I believe that the people who choose to make a choice will be standing tall in the face of the unknown but they will be standing not watching. For it does not matter what you believe, it is only a matter that you believe. The loss of belief in ourselves has been disastrous for mankind and created a world that is screaming for relief from the pain and the agony which surrounds us.

Do not ever forget that people are the most incredible beings, it is all a matter of the choice’s that we make for ourselves each and every day. The ability to make a difference begins and ends with you and me. I will not quit on you. I believe in everything, I believe that I am here and I believe in me. I believe that believing you have a choice is key to overcoming the wave of apathy that has swept over our heads and our country. Believe in whatever you would like to believe, but believe in something because once belief is gone, choice will go and then we will have lost hope and hope is the innocence of all our belief’s.

Referring to the 1959 dictionary again, "belief" is defined as follows;

the intellectual acceptance of anything as true; the act of believing; a faith or creed. Syn. Assurance, confidence credence, creed, faith, reliance, trust.

Do not knock anothers beliefs because you do not agree, it truly is unkind and cruel. Worst of all, when you do such a thing to another being you are on purpose shattering their soul with your words. That to me, is the definition of cruelty.

In closing, and to combat what I have seen in my life, I am writing down what I believe for all of the shattered souls and hearts in the world. I would like to see those souls, hearts and minds healed and better yet, I would love to see and hear them sing again. This is only a structure that develops belief. What and how you choose to accept or use this is for yourself is for you and you lone to do with as you please. I hope that it will ignite a fire in each of us as individuals, then I hope that as an individual we choose carefully every step we take and that we impact the World with change.

So here you have it in black and white, funny or not, it is just my understanding, the 5th dimension so to speak, it is not just a Rock-n-Roll band. The 5th Dimension is the transformation of your own consciousness to understanding, not just knowing but truly understanding, what you know and choose to do. This is known to me as "Mapping", in order to achieve a finite equation of what life is to me, you must "map your own heart", "map your own soul" and "map your own mind". I would like to share with you how I see this in my own mind, and since it seems to all be a math equation anyway I thought that seeing might be part of believing;

actually the equation is simply, or simple, You!

Karen A. Placek

Written on blog 2/12/2008
Edited on 3/21/2011

My Motto

Stand proud!!
Allow your posture to be your Voice!!
Then your words can be your grace!!
Silence is golden, until is broken,
that is when you go Platinum!!
This is our heritage,
Freedom is priceless
will cost you everything
no promises.

yours truly,

Karen Anastasia Placek

Written on blog 2/17/2008

Just A Blurb About Being Able To See

I want to share this with you;

As you open your own eyes and begin to see the world around you in a way that you have never seen before, what do you do? I have always believed in this simple thought, if people were afforded the opportunity to truly "See", even if it were only for a moment, then in time they would leap at the chance to open their own eyes (minds eye). So believing this, I made myself a promise a very long time ago, or, should I say early on in my life, I don't want to sound old. Anyway, I promised myself that I would never walk by anyone without extending an invitation of kindness with a smile. I would smile and say hello, (simple but true) this may sound lame or stupid but I thought starting with simple courtesy would be something. When you don't know where to start, then you start with the simple and go from there at least that was the idea behind "Hello".

In the beginning of my journey I had a difficult time communicating this invitation. Mostly, the smile and hello was not working or I just did not know how to communicate at all. Then I could not understand why they could not see all the wonder of the world that was right in front of them, forget my stupid hello. The beauty that surrounds us always amazes me. I have to be totally honest; this made me wonder most of all. We are surrounded by wonder and people are so unhappy, including me on occasion.

I hate feeling unhappy or miserable about my life, so each day I wake up and say to myself, "new day, new footsteps for me to take in the world today, maybe I will skip out my front door or walk, maybe run, doesn't matter how I do it this morning, I am going to do it happily because, I want to, I want to do it for myself in preparation for all the people that I may meet today."

It has taken many years for me to understand, worst of all, it has taken me years to accept that some people, seems like a lot of people just do not want to see anything, regardless, if their eyes are in their mind or in their eye ball sockets, or in their head. They seem to want to remain blind to everything, have we become an apathetic society?

I used to believe, or better put, you could say, "I used to think", maybe people do not want to "see" anything, even the things that seem to be blaring them in the face. Could it be that choosing apathy over sight was due to all the pain that it would cause in their own heart and soul? I have to say to you, I am not sure that is it. My reasoning lies in this thought, wouldn't you have to first look at the problem to remember the pain, not simply not look or never look or decide to never "See". It is almost as if people have lost the eyes to see or do not have any eyes at all, no eyes to open or close, regardless of where they may be located, in their mind or eye sockets. How has this happened? Why has this happened? More importantly, how can you heal your own sight if your eyes are gone, replaced with apathy or worse, is now a simple void in yourself.

What is a void anyway? A void to me means an empty space but when I looked it up in the 1959 Webster New Dictionary this is the definition;

1) n. an empty space, a vacuum.
adj. empty, vacant, unoccupied; without effect.
vt. to make empty or vacant, eject; to make ineffective of invalid, annul.

Take a second or take a moment and ask yourself, "What does a void mean to you?" Are you seeing trouble in our world, do you ask yourself;

"What is happening?"
"Why does it feel like something is missing in our society?"
"What is missing?"

I took a look into my own Soul; I see the design of my own Heart. I can see an illustration of my own Life; it is a map of sorts, full of mountains, valleys, rivers and roads. All sorts of roads, there are freeways buzzing with thoughts that are racing through my mind. As I look more closely at myself, I begin to see the imperfections, as well as, the well worn paths; they seem to be the byways that run across, over, under and through this strange freeway system in my mind. Upon closer inspection of this different world inside of my mind, there are places alive with waterfalls, flowers, trees and pastures, green with new grass and then other places are the driest of Deserts. I can feel the hot air inside and the sun seems to beating me down, it is stifling, it is so incredibly arid. These are definitely the places I do not like to visit in my mind or think about, yet it seems that I am drawn to these places, why? Almost as if we enjoy being miserable in our day to day lives as oppose to choosing to being in all the beautiful parts of ourselves.

I believe that the reason we are drawn to such desolation in ourselves is simple, we need to find a reason for the lack of rain or "comfort" in that spot. I look at these spots and ask myself,

"Was this a time in my life when I was lost and lonely?"
"Did I settle for the discomfort of the situation because it seemed to be company for my misery?"

Here is the answer I wrote for myself; I would like to share it with you;

The past is our lesson.
The present our teacher.
The future, an adventure, not yet had.
Learn by our lessons.
Receive the education.
Change the future.
Happiness lies in our hearts,
explore the depths,
shine a light into our cave,
know that Hope springs from the hands that sew our tomorrows!!

I am writing this for all the words that I never spoke to the people I passed in my life. I have a thought that would go with each one. Though care, nor love ever ruled in my life, my care and love has always been present. Sometimes, we, or I, cannot share our deepest emotional strife, but in each stare, when I missed the opportunity to be kind to another being, I write this for you. In each moment we are here together with one another, walking together side by side, realizing that in one stare lies so much of ourselves that is communicated to each other. Words are so simple, thoughts so complex, the journey that I have been on, has been a means to an end. I have learned and am still learning, "that finding the end has been the means for me to begin my journey."

Karen Anastasia Placek

Written on blog  2/17/2008
Edited 3/21/2011

The Big Bang Created Me

Delivered into the mouth of Ancient Dragon. 

This is what I know to be; this is "Me", 
always was and always will be. 

I am only a child in a world not known, 
a world lost to all who knew of such things. 

My father created me!! 

He called upon his father's father and father's father, 
he called upon an ancient line of ancestors, 
a linear view of what he knew and thus he broke the rules. 

For in his death, 
he gave me life and death is what I know life to be. 


Written of blog 2/17/2008

A World Of Motion

"The instinct for self-preservation is the driving force behind our self-annihilation."
The epitome of a double-edged sword.

Merely knowing is not understanding. We have been drowned with information, yet, I see no real understanding in our society or the World. I hear the words of other men, people from a different time in our history. These verses are spoken out of the mouths of people today, something is lacking when they speak. Yes, the words they speak are true and are full of powerful reflections. However, simply regurgitating another’s words is not knowing, nor is it understanding of what the verses actually meant. It is merely the repetition of another person's insight that you yourself were unable to actually assimilate. Therefore, we have become nothing but a trained parrot for the entire world to listen to as we squawk out directions for belief. This may be harsh, the bitter truth usually is and it never goes down as sweet.
This is not about stroking egos, this is merely about understanding what original thought is, and how it relates to belief. Realizing that the verses and the words within the already written books, were written through time to enrich our minds and souls in order for individuals to grow in their own imaginative thought. The mind is the most incredible playground with no bounds of its own. Opening your eyes to the wonder of your own mind would enable you to realize how incredible you really are, you are amazing.

Written on blog 2/17/2008
Edited 3/21/2011