Thursday, October 18, 2012
(an excerpt from "To the Stars! To be Blunt but never to be Alone and without a Dream of Magic and "You" as my Home!!")
"How does "One" find an other person in this World today?
With Millions of people circulating about,
do you think that you just randomly run into each to other?
What if you don't?
What if you still feel this incredible pull but can't grasp onto what it may be?
So, if this happened and by a certain age you knew you missed your mate.
One "Twin Soul" might go towards the World Stage,
while the other got very quiet and started to listen for his call.
Could it be a Plan?
Life is a Gamble!!
The bets are high and always certainly against,
meeting your mate, let alone a "Twin Soul."
For we are few and far between,
yet we stream.
You sing, what I write!!
That is more than coincidence,
it is Fate!!
Don't get lost now,
especially in what you say you hate.
Fame and Fortune, the result thereof.
Just in case.
If I never meet you, I will see you in the Stars!
I've seen your picture,
I know your voice,
I see you in my "Mind's Eye."
I feel your presence and that I'll never forget,
even when I get old.
Looking into the eyes of no one,
realizing that I was alone,
and subsequently would be in life itself.
I made a decision and I was not stealth.
I will do the opposite of everything I see her do,
I will be what she is not to me,
accountable for all I see.
I will find my own personal liberty.
It is wrong to take a life,
it can't be right,
no matter the strife that you may have felt on that night.
Be it psychological,
be it metaphorical,
be it physical,
be it suicide,
there is no justice for the dead in such a heinous act.
With nothing more than a reactive state of mind,
I decided and I had realized,
I am her, but I cannot be what I see,
for in that, I abhor, what seems a chore, for even more.
What will I do?
I am a witness to you.
My life is forced into do?
In an instant I was,
and could not be,
what I see,
it terrorized me.
I was numb with what was there in plain sight,
for me to have to end up to be at night.
I knew I was right,
to do what was wrong.
Deny the Family Throng!
I try to face the Nightmares,
they take me back to Day-mares,
each night I rack my brain,
I try not to complain,
the memories are just so insane,
reminding me of why I am so drained.
The Daylight hours wane,
I spend most of them in vain,
desperately trying to beat the disdain,
so that I may remain to bare witness to whom has claimed,
they are Ordained.
Why?, Oh Why?,
must People still be,
beating Me for what I have seen?
It's all those fucking memories,
I know that they are key,
I speak with honesty.
I know with absolute certainty,
I have bore witness to atrocities,
of which few believe.
told to feel only shame,
for the deeds of which no one will explain.
I am startled by Humanity,
and it's lack of inquiry into this family.
The years have proven,
that nobody cares for anyone out there.
Children are DEAD!!
And yet you have said,
"Prove it, it's all in your head."
you speak for me,
the ignorant still believe.
That's O.K. with Me,
for the fool is an idiot on reprieve.
And I am the survivor of all of thee.
I need to dream,
because of all I have seen.
My reality is obscene,
and proves to be really mean.
I can't speak on what I have never seen.
Anyone stand against my Family.
It has always only been Me.
My Truth is no Dare,
just despair speaking to whom might care,