The Blind Of Any Year Is 'The Keep' Of A Dungeon Steer

As this year cheers it's end,

an other clocks the count.

The balance enters,

a Calendar mounts.

Life is...in Itself,

an example,

a Way to Route,

the guide while about,

to prepare for the next out!!

As death is... knot a play,

it will come and you'll display,

on either-side you have a Voice,

that will 'Still' any roar!!

Death Court asks,

What are you for?,

a question asked while you are bored.

Few admit,

I don't know!!,

while the sum adds too 'til,

the expressive Being you are,

is so able to hit this Par!!

PLAY?!?!

Moving-on, Forward through,

does it matter or is it grand?,

to know that chores,

a Service or Door,

still retains the lift you are?

Could this 'Might'

I think it's tight,

open venue or threaten light?

Albeit darkness does invite,

it is Belief that's yours tonight,

just as it is in every plight!!

To take away, to jam ideas,

to turn deaf ears,

makes so much clear,

for in an Independent thought or Mind,

one must not judge the wrought of,

tons!!

As each asked,

consider 'Past'

repetition seems still blast,

'likened' too 'Same Mistake'

as some do change,

it still takes place.

A small move,

a different due,

consider this as you chose!!

The fact of life,

is it's 'Might'

to look for right,

just may enhance your fight. 

The Spear, The Sword, The Words

The grand of any piano,

the key a Man does play,

the chord of a measured share.

Too Pleasure

The scores so countered,

a metronome clicks,

to keep the time,

'cause I won't look...away!!

Captured I am,

by a singular man,

he haunts my port,

with a strange rapport,

I wonder,

Is there more?

In state,

a site to see,

will this feat prove to be?,

dynamics? or just plain deed?

To clap the same,

'Old Way'

put into words,

the rhythm rights,

a Riddlers plight!!

Gazing upon that door,

I open to know,

their adored.

Knot by passed,

but on Trust,

of simply saying,

I still do lust....after!!

The Sound Of Loud

Too forge on,

to sing a song,

to take note to what became 'Notable'

the support?,

palpable!!

The Choir of Silence,

roared with direction,

not North or South,

know Compass ruled,

just directed with quiet repose.

To thank what became a great strength to me,

would only prove,

I am at a loss of words,

for such moments delivered love.

That presence in my life,

proved that not only 'grace' exists,

but,

it's a Alive and a Way.

I saw it each and every day,

no ifs, ands or buts,

just was.

What an incredible example of how to move forward,

without resentment or the I should haves,

just go and know,

"You are loved too."

Life Is Certain Too Stun

Once again life is no mend,

the factual basis of only pain from the begin,

retains itself in a strange sort of blend.

The on-going symptom of only done,

is the commonality of a well-strung sum.

I hope for the World a date to hold,

to keep and never feel sold,

to shield myself from what has been done,

I simply say; 

"It's no fun, what has been done."

Evolution Bangs

The disturbing trend of,
no concern,
will know and end as,
the approach,
is not indifferent to what is rote.

The divide of a cavern,
a fossil won't lie,
it's wealth is truth,
the find,
grave!!

The pass of a moment,
knot rushed, pushed,
delivered curse,
evolution terse.

The mountain valley,
the stream so sick,
no matter dark,
the negative?,
lurch!!

The tree so spoke,
the ample bough,
the vine,
exampling toll!!

Words erupt,
structure fails,
the hurried day,
brings hate not death.

Move quickly friend,
or I may sum,
your appearance means,
run fast from.

The breath it takes,
to state "I'm Fate"
is less than equal,
for I say make!!

Far from Earth,
farther Universe Scene,
the sights of such,
sent Life to touch!!

Spread the News,
not Lies be shrewd,
for I have found,
Human Beings are rude!!

Take, Take, Take,
seems Their rate,
robbing lives,
just like War!!

The lead to grace,
appealing source,
the Gold Rings core,
a Dragon Force!!

The thought of great,
flight is had,
not just my spirit,
it is my mad!!

Description filled,
stories full,
as Humanity ignored them still.

The smoke in signal,
the sound of mourn,
I hang my head,
Mortals dread!!

Life to Death,
a victory march,
known to those,
whom know the Mount.

The liberty of,
comes with type,
a simple prose,
Identity, Rite!!

The Rivalry Of Here

To brake too train,

be prepared for what?

The Same

The heat of fire,

burns this page,

the ink is black,

and,

I'm of Age!!

The 'Voice of Say'

the truth is clear,

so I write,

to read a cheer!!

Onward, Forward,

march to lift,

my spirit's down?,

I'm still around.

Just a phone call,

proves what's bound!!

To blame the reason,

for life or treason,

I state, "It's all"

just happens.

Believe n'

So to the 'Skeptic'

hello to 'Cowards'

your face is missing,

much like the language.

But livings different,

I breathe to know,

that 'Thoughts' equip,

my every show.

To think on ignorance,

impatient lies,

my eyes do see,

'Their' disguise!!

Made evident with days,

realized,

the proof of said,

is not yet dead.

The red in death,

the black enraged,

the hate of most,

delivers Sage!!

Speaking on,

subject wrong,

what was spake,

made Satan wake.

The way to placed,

is long and traced,

to be replaced is a mistake.

The Ride of a Mounted Stay!!

Global Equine Perspective ~ Decoding Equine Performance by Tamara Placek Stafford

Decoding Equine Performance

~

Premiere and Overview: 

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NcRNxzW0eQk
~
"This is my older sister Tam, pretty cool stuff if you ask me.  She trained me!!"

Me, Freckles and Tam at the 'Paddock Arena' in Golden Gate Park, San Francisco, California

"And now I can ride Rogues!!, just like this one in the photo below.  Shades and I are the two that are having a discussion about 'halting', lol. His owner was looking on as her daughter Julie, was cruising effortlessly around the warm-up ring at CTETA also known as Woodside Horse Park. This was a  Schooling Show in August of this year, I am the 'Acting Trainer' for both Julie and Shades.  The day ended well for both of them, lots of ribbons for the young lady, to include a championship and best of all, a very exhausted and content Shades.  Great first time out!!"

Me, Shades, Jewels and Belle at CTETA, Woodside Horse Park, Woodside, California
August 2013

Death and Life

The stress of death has made,

a visit of late,

not afraid,

I invited the peace I know.

Instead I try

The laughter,

made me die.

To know that Death,

is only door,

I do not worry,

not even chore.

Turns out the humor,

of such a time,

brought reality,

in a Sign.

I said goodbyes to whom I know,

may not miss me 'til I earth,

it is not me who'd miss this be,

terribly sad? 'cause I'd be glad.

You'd have my Lore

It is nice to know my Son shares fear,

he does wish that when we list,

we go together,

said,

"It would be best."

I think to know,

that he did show,

the same concern of such a turn,

increased my want to stop the taunt.

Oddly contagion-ed

To succumb from exhaustion,

tons and tons as it sums,

the accusations and lack of nations,

at least he has a girl,

relation.

Jewels

Mother Nature,

once before,

took me straight to deaths door,

Twenty something and very ill,

turned out stress still does kill.

I think that she has had enough,

I'm not wanted and I've had it rough.

My body ill and my mind is drill,

the antibiotics are working still,

I may survive or be just fill,

all I know is I want to show.

Twin Soul

I wished to hold the hand of whom,

sang a song and landed Moon,

the album came and I played too,

the D.V.D was pretty cool.

Thanks for the note,

the picture is,

really neat,

you seem so clean.

I still think you're kind of cute,

you make me swoon,

I feel the boot.

B.D.S.M.

In the end I guess it's best,

to know that luck is like a test,

it's better, it's best.

So to you,

 my dear Sir who,

I'd like to hold,

make love to too,

I hope for a day you come to say,

"I'm here to take you all away."

Retrograde

The worth in a Man lives in the lies that are Told.

Sadly it is only these,

that We here,

stories grow old.

The endearment to Truth,

does not Lie only holds,

not you at Bay,

but the Murderers and the Cowards.

the unworthy Lives,

seeking death as the glory,

it lived in this one.

To march upon a man's heart,

with nothing other than,

indecisive measure,

it will show-up in,

the end,

a needless direction.

Leaving you short of your mark,

thereupon leaving that Heart & Soul,

whole in, 

Balance & Unmeasured Treasure.

The regard to the spoken word,

does not have calculations for the mis-information,

in the Language.

Leaving the written word,

open to an individual,

and therefore the interpretation,

will be made by the force of the Tongue,

which is most twisted?

For in the end,

maybe it is not the snake,

with a Forked-Tongued message,

of which we may find,

strange but rather,

the splitting of,

a man's decision.

In Him-Self over what,

is correct or,

what is not.

Created a split-tongue,

instead,

an alter-ego,

or the like.

For at least,

in this thought,

I have not committed,

to either,

for thinking with the wisdom,

of a Snake and the Credence,

of a Man.

Leave Me,

still standing,

differently but with a plausible answer.

Towards which Story,

I would find, 

to be Myth.

The Garden of Eden,

for a Snake may slither,

but,

he can not speak,

with an audible tone.

Rather because I am,

unable of any English,

speaking Creatures,

other than Man.

So if,

lies were truth and truth were lies and men have died for so much of this...

where is your snake,

which speaks to say?

At First I Had Decided Not To Share This With Anyone, I was at a loss for words

When rumors and accusations are made behind your back you usually never know the source or the accuser by name.  In fact, in my case I just get a bad feeling and remove myself from the situation.  I guess hindsight being 20/20 I wondered why I was no longer needed as a Riding Instructor at Sun Valley Equestrian, but after reading this email that was forwarded to me as an F.Y.I., I don't need to wonder anymore.


I have left off the email addy's and last names of the people involved other than myself of course, as I do not wish for anyone to be able to contact any of the said parties.  I just believe that after the past few days I will feel better if I am honest about how much stress I have been under.  Until now I have been very quiet about the events in the past month or so.  However I feel that due to said events, my stress level became so high that it brought on these illnesses.

I was not really certain about what to do when I received this email as an F.Y.I., so I didn't do anything at all.  In truth, I was at loss for words, really I still am but maybe by posting what I was sent a month ago someone else can find the words that I have lost.

To: Karen Placek

FYI

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: Juliette
Date: Wed, Oct 23, 2013 at 11:12 AM
Subject: Re:
To: Diane


Karen never said anything negative to me about you. The decisions I made were based on my own experiences.

I wish you the best, good luck in the future.

Juliette


On Tue, Oct 22, 2013 at 11:03 PM, wrote:

 Hi Juliette, sorry to bother you at work today.
I am not looking for you to get involved in anything or ever see me or be my friend.
I simply feel I need to defend myself against the ugly, disgusting lies Karen has made up about me. I have no idea of what she told you but after the last week I'm beginning to understand that we have been played, manipulated into believing that each other"somehow had sinister Motives  in our business dealings.
From the very beginning Karen did not like you for some reason.
she would say things like I am stupid for letting you be a part or the business, why am I giving you half etc. I replied that I needed a partner to be half responsible and that you were very good to me when everything went down with Laura. She would get angry with me saying I make to many excuses for you etc.  She had me come to her house to convince me of all your wrong and evil doings. Then you and I started having disagreements and she just made it intensified. She said you were always complaining  about me saying things about me like I didn't know a thing about the business, I don't deserve my husband, and more.
This really upset me as you had told me I had done an awesome job with the business so far and this is why you wanted to come in with me. I also was mad cause you clearly stressed you didn't want us talking about stuff to the employees.  It has finally made me realize that she was most likely saying stuff to you as well as she has been to people on the ranch, I might add not to the people that really know me but you the ones that really don't.
She has told jack and Nona that I accused them of intentionally hurting my horse, told people I drug my horses in the lesson program, that I don't call the vet.
That I leave sick horses alone to die, the list goes on. She has taking all the things that I value about myself or have integrity about and painted me as the opposite. The way you moved Belle confused me I couldn't understand why she couldn't stay in the barn, the night of the show
You were all trying to get my daughter go to dinner with out her mother that made me feel very uncomfortable.  I can't imagine what she has said to you regarding me, but if it is close to the other things she is saying about me then I'm not sure I blame you for running.  All I can say is I am not perfect, I make mistakes , but I am a good person. I run my business with the same integrity I have in every area of my life. I would never miss use or drug any animal. Shit I don't even eat meat.
Juliette she even went as far to say is you have evil beings coming out if your head and you were trying to suck the life out of me, and that it was her mission to get you out of the barn.   She even accused you of trying to hurt Julie and you were working with Laura to make a fool of me.

With this I can only conclude that we were both played by a very smart, manipulative, sick person whom we both cared for.

It truly disturbs me to think that you thought  I would harm your horse or anyone's horse for that matter.   I have dedicated much of my life to care for these horses
And love them like my own..
I know I can not change how you feel about me, but it does hurt to think you are feeling victimize by me and my family, as I'm sure you must have been hurt by whatever she said about me.
Juliette I need to know if you think Johnoh was in on all of this
I am worried that Julie is being played. I just don't know anymore. It seems as if my internal compass has failed me once again.  Please if you could do one thing for me and answer this because I am really worried for my daughter.
I am now starting to believe everything about Karen Is a lie,
I think she points the finger at people for stuff she is guilty of and quite  frankly she scares me!
It is really unfortunate this turned out the way it did but I do want you to know, I do not think anymore that you were trying hurt me or do anything sinister, I must say  I never  tried to hurt you and you did not misjudge my character nor did I misjudge yours.  I am sorry I didn't come to you in the first place. Im not exactly sure what Karen wanted or why she hates me us so much that she came to help and decided to wreak Havoc
Between us and our barn. I'm not sure what she thought she would gain and with her accusations marked with your behavior towards me it began to paint an ugly picture. Especially when I was facing a difficult time bringing my Mom here. I was looking for a bit of support from my friends and felt I was kicked in the face an thus my reaction to that wasn't pretty.  I don't know what to say and I don't need you to believe what I say for I know what happened now its all very clear

I thank you for all the times you extended yourself to me and i will always remember the very generous trip to Hawaii  where i got to rest for the first time in years. I hope you take care of yourself and someday know me for the person I truly am.

I wish you an Belle all the best.

Sincerely,
Diane

Sent from my iPhone

F.Y.I.

I was not admitted to the Hospital today because the regime of drugs that I was put on by Marin County General originally on Wednesday afternoon is working.

I am taking the following;

Cephalexin 500mg
Sulfamethoxazole TMP DS
Hydrocodon-Acetaminophen 5-500
Ibuprofen 600 mg

So if you should be feeling ill and know that you have had contact with me or my son, Johno, than you may want this information before you go to your doctor today.

My diagnosis on Wednesday was the following, I have MRSA, Cellulitis, Staph and a Sore Throat.

Post Script:

I am feeling much better today and I am so sorry if you are not.

Diagnosis from Marin County General Hospital on Thursday 11-21-2013:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Methicillin-resistant_Staphylococcus_aureus

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cellulitis

To Whom It May Concern

The past month or so I have been under an increased amount of stress that has caused me to become extremely run down both mentally and physically.  The last accusation was the nail in the coffin for me, I just reached a breaking point I guess.  To have my ex-husbands attorney write in court documents that my Landlord was affording my housing due to what I will refer as a "Uncle/Niece" relationship and than proceed to say that if he was being paid that to date he would have been paid over $50,000.00 in this case.  I had to stop and ask myself, " Is this divorce case pro-Bono?"  This was the first and last step to what has ended up being an extremely serious and possibly dangerous health situation for not only me but for anyone whom has been in contact with me, hence this post today.

The accusations, insinuations, the lies, the emails, the phone calls on random days from Government Agency's have not helped but pushed me over the top, stressing me out so far that my health is now broken.

On Tuesday of this week, following my Court appearance in Sacramento, California I fell 'ill' and subsequently to my  concern for my health I did go to the Emergency Room but not until the following day because I do not like Hospitals at all.  It seems in the past when I have gone to the doctor for a cold, I end up being admitted for something far more serious.  My last experience left me in the hospital for more than a week and it took over a year to recover.  I turned out it was not a cold but Acute Ashmatic Bronchiitis brought on by stress.  At the time my doctor sent me to the hospital, I apparently was suffocating and did not know it.  The test he did in his office showed that I had 10% oxygen in my blood, hence the suffocation.  He was an extremely kind physician and without causing any alarm to me, just saying I should go to the hospital for another evalution.  When I arrived I was bombarded by the staff, put into isolation where they could begin to treat whatever was causing this problem.  It was not until I hit the hospital that I realized how sick I was, with that being said I feel as if I am on repeat.

When I arrived at the Hospital on Wednesday afternoon with my son, I went because the pain was to great, not because I felt sick.  Turns out, yet again, I am very, very sick. I have MRSA and Facial Cellulitis along with a slough of other things that make no sense to me because it just seems impossible to be or to have this many illness's at once.  Of course on a lighter note, when the staff at the front desk asked me why I was there or what I thought I had I said, "Encephalitis."  I was told that was impossible cause it would be much like that movie 'Contagion' with Matt Damon and Cameron Diaz and I said, "Yep that is the one, I have exactly what Cameron Diaz had in the movie."  The staff said I would not be walking around still, I laughed and said, "I know, that's weird, that is why I came in in today 'cause I don't feel good about this."  Well turns I was not to far off in my diagnosis and due to current events I still say this has been brought on my 'Stress Itself' and I know that this is contrary to popular belief.  It's Mother Nature saying "enough is enough" the kid needs to come home.

I went back yesterday and have to go again today, the Emergency Room Doctor wants to keep tabs on this or on me so we know whether or not I need to stay at the Hospital so they can administer more frequent doses of antibiotics.  To date I am taking two types at home and being given I.V. boluses at the Emergency Room, all to try to avoid a stay in the Hospital, which I really appreciate cause I hate hospitals you can get so sick in them.  That sounds kind of dumb now but oh well that's what happens when you have......well you know my diagnosis, LOL.

So keep your fingers crossed and with a little luck and a positive outlook I will cruise in there tomorrow and be cleared to recover here at home.

Should this not be the case, than I would to say;

Dear Rebecca, Kathleen and Lauren,

"I love you very much and think of you often."  

To Mr. James Blunt, 

" I am sorry that I was unable to meet you thus far and I would like to wish you the best your future appears to be dynamically driven.  Keep a stiff upper lip and don't forget to laugh, it is the Nectar of our Life.  I love your new album.  I bought the Album in a pre-order venue on the Internet and it was delivered a week or so ago.  I love the 'Book' it is just like the one I imagined for something I wanted to publish, very 'Old School'.  It seems that you and I have a common way to express our ideas and by your notes and/or illustrations we jot things down much the same, it was really cool to see in person."

 

Painting 'The French Room' at Woodside International High School, San Francisco, CA

By Lauren Michelle Hernandez