Yesterday Hit

Yesterday smothered my thoughts.

A blind rage in what I'm taught,

can you see the boys and Men?

Breaking in every scene.

Ramming down their cocks.

Erections that are mean

leaving every being.

Throwing me all around!

Hosing down my phlegm!

Shouting obscenity's,

saying that I mean.

Gnashing teeth!!

Grating ribs!!

Fighting, Hitting, Fisting, Life?

fucking, yelling, frenzy's out.

No more minds, no eyes, lights out!!!

Wild scourge of all I see!

Implements rehearsed on me!

Nothing is inside my home.

I have left.

I need a comb.

K.A.P.

6/16/2009

Can't Leave

Swarming mind of frantic space,

my Self removes me from a race.

Where is the air in age?

Drowning underneath the sage?

Counter me, I clock myself,

I am here and there in place.

Looking round inside this mace,

cream-filled pie was not on my face.

Raging sight of glue filled crap,

dangling memories would fill all that.

My head does race, 
I'm blind enraged!

From a time in such cramped space,

the air is hot and wet and dry,

I gag with blood, and cough out taste.

My stomach racks with hot outrage,

ripped apart in dark garage.

Beams of wood stood there in large,

welling deep in memory.

The scare, the rights,

of this I blare.

Here Me, I See, 
I'm Blindingly!!

My eyes, 
they sting, 
I cannot breathe,

gagging, gasping, 
I just can't leave.

K.A.P.

6/16/2009

Real Romance

When a child is born,

a little one will follow.

Years roll by, Ocean Waves!

Trees will blow,

Storms will rage,

Rain will pour,

will age wane?

Pain runs deep,

a Well will fill,

positive, creative, real,

bizarre.

Your mind can save,

not wired the same.

Normal? Insane?

Crazy May;

be not so bad.

Look up! See!

a Sight of Love.

Desire will show,

to maintain such stance.

Bright bulb, a flash

of real romance.

K.A.P.

6/15/2009

Again, I Tear

Early MORN doth break,

like a father as he comes,

to hold the gentle breeze,

to help his daughters needs.

A mother drawing close,

nature doth approach,

to bad for physical being.

I need a small reprieve.

Spirit of the Universal climb,

out-of-body and singing,

Auld lang Syne!!

No New Year, just a day,

when nature went away.

Far north, does it land?

a mental approach

rebuke the curses there,

and wrap myself bare,

until such time

I Tear!

Again!...

K.A.P.

6/11/2009

Rape

Fear has my mind (and body),

my soul does not know.

Challenge lies in Truth of Thought,

fraught seems to cost a lot.

Freedom from this terror and cage,

is different from "turn the page".

A mindful being is rarely seen,

human troubles bought.

Natural path must have to last,

earth should know the way.

She guides our energetic sign (sought)

giving us, though she's gone,

the scare in me since I was Three.

Began in one short dare.

I closed my eyes and then I cried,

coming for me 'till I died.

Earth mother, Moon father,

Stars of another kind.

Dark matter, more matter,

create for me a safe.

Take my fear, do not jeer,

please take from me this rape.

K.A.P.

6/11/2009

Will Last

Glorious moments, dimes in time,

experience that is not mine.

Ownership of "Self" required.

It's just the way we are wired.

Shout with eyes, do not tire,

journey is a fragment trier.

Mouth shall silent, minds require,

noise on trails in wonder mire.

Adventure, truth, wisdom, why?

questions asked. Do not lie.

A rhythm earthly knowing cry,

do you know who is your........sigh.

Close your conscience self

to sigh, thanking goodness

you say, "bye", (not tie!)

a complicated nursery rhyme,

that will last eternal time.

K.A.P.

6/9/2009

Earth Mother

Expect nothing, receive everything,

quiet peace in solitude.

Meditate in isolate,

find truth in the study of,

suffering and pain.

The World is not sobering,

unhealth sickens the sea.

An ocean of small liberties,

a starlit sky is smog.

Extinction cries so loudly,

people laugh and jeer.

This Earth pains her sides,

while we turn and just won't die.

Time will be her favor,

animals will rule,

termits and bacteria,

survive the glacier pool.

A cock roach is determined,

a nuclear exist.

No matter what the outcome,

a small one doth persist.

Earth Mother shall exist.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009 

The List

Love is lost, eternal signs,

this word is felt and often mine.

Laws of Divine and natural state,

finding yourself, do not bait.

Release your fears and feel it near,

encompass yourself with truth.

Wise ones isolate in a meditative state,

quiet time enrich your soul,

faith in love will often soar.

The breath of air, natures lair,

oxygen for lungs to bare,

breathing love, plunging sun,

enjoy the moons repentence.

Peaceful love in a stare.

Freedom with my love consist,

spirit laws don't resist,

the courts for this

seem to persist,

hatred is not on the list.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Memories

It's just assault,

it's not my fault,

these rooms are just not free.

They charged their friends,

for ins and outs,

for pricks to cause the bleed.

A silence toned when I roamed,

alone and in despair.

No one believed,

no one would care,

they'd pull my hair,

I am a snare

I'm trapped inside this beast.

I do like me,

I am not free,

say "no" to this, it's make-believe,

your memories of me.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Lost At Sea

My older sister tortured me,

upon my sides she would prick me,

with needles, pins and what she'd see.

The wounds were explicitly,

the character of pain.

Sharp instruments,

with noise I'd see,

no name is what they did call me.

You changed our life,

and we're not free,

your fault, your birth,

and then I'd scream.

Their faces used to really

scare me.

In night and day,

in fright, in bay

they'd lay,

in very tight display.

It's all your fault,

you caused this vault,

don't speak assault,

or you will know default.

By hand and barrel,

Lost at Sea.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Disease

My brother handled me like bars,

my tricycle repair.

My blue Raleigh,

made attempts,

it lasted out the Pimps you see.

I was so fast,

he punched like that,

no sound, he smothered me.

Crawl in here,

I'd get stuck,

tear off my pants and underwear.

I would sweat in despair,

he'd force himself inside.

My poop would hide,

deep he'd ride,

my lift would often break.

I could not take,

he was a snake,

in night he'd rule my thumb.

He'd hump my bum,

and then he'd come,

put me upon my knees, 

say "please".

You're so dumb, 

you're just a bum,

and I am your disease.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Will End

Raping, taping, do not speak,

you little tiny fuckin' freak.

Your words and screams,

they are so mean,

your made to birth it out.

Do not bite,

this is the sight,

my hardened organ speaks.

You little whore,

it is your chore,

bend well,

or you shall sink.

My ear to every door!

Your shrinks,

will only stop and think,

your only reason is this season,

lasting all the years.

The word I "no",

shall be not known,

I'll break you in at Three.

Shut-up you touched,

I'll tell your Mom,

a simple slut,

will end.

(Don't sin!!)

K.A.P.

6/8/2009

Fling

I love my life, though full of sights,

red velvet curtains sway,

tied-up just right,

my mom not tight,

enjoying Lairs of darkness stares,

I walk from room to room.

Sat down at booths,

the men were loose,

their hands with ropes they tied.

My ice cream melts,

as I delay,

I just do not want to play.

Behind the wooden cross,

the darkened walls,

in redness falls, my knees in broken fare.

The Lords proclaimed,

not my name, my age is hidden; fright!

Step by farther; hand was harder,

I feel my body split.

I crack, my back, not by choice,

help the girl she breathes.

The witches bow unto the lords,

dominion doth not ring.

It's just another fling.

K.A.P.

6/8/2009